Thanks 2022, I’m beyond grateful

hello, welcome to my year-end post.
it’s time for me to remember everything that happened in 2022.

• Another year another heartbreaking story. I was far from home and I missed every struggle things to keep someone alive. I think it’s my first time losing close family and watching his funeral till the end.
• I learn a lot about not relying on a certain person as everyone come and goes periodically. though adapting is never easy for me
• I’m finally letting the idea about him. I pretend to be unnoticed something and ignore my feelings just to make everything right. perhaps I should start thinking about defining a relationship
• I think i have much on my way of adulting and it seems not easy, at all, for me. It can’t be enough just to know what is right and wrong, sometimes you need (or maybe better) doing not so right things for the sake of your sanity.
• Anxiety hits me after some hanging and random talks with colleague. I keep on thinking if i say something that i shouldn’t and end up crying over it
• Sometimes i feel like i can’t do anything well based on certain people’s standard and it drives me a little bit unmotivated to do everything.

Surprisingly, it’s almost the last day of 2022 and I can’t wait for 2023, the year for big plans